Some Awkward Nincompoopery
Dear Readers, the previous installment of nincompoopery outlined how SAN got carried away with some sexting, got caught by his girlfriend and felt crappy. Everything seemed great for our hero, until, while he was hanging with the boys, Perfect Girl went to “babysit” with some girlfriends. “Babysit” turned out to be code for “party” so our hero went in search of Perfect Girl at the party. We continue here with the story already in process…
She was drunk. I insisted she leave, because that wasn’t her, she wasn’t a partier. I drove her car to my house as she cried and told me she didn’t want to be with me anymore. I thought it was the alcohol, so we decided to talk the next day. She had her mind made up. She was done with me. A few days after, she was already taking intimate pictures with another guy. A guy who I have always hated. A player, a guy who would date a girl just to have sex with her. While we were dating she always talked about how he was disgusting he was, and how the girls that were fell for his lies were stupid. I could get myself to believe it. I looked at her as an angel. My angel. A pure, innocent, perfect being. I was devastated. I was depressed. I tried getting over her with using other girls as a sense of ‘in the moment,’ instant love. I moved to fast into relationships and then found them ending quicker than they began. I could never get the feeling I had with her back. She ended up dating the guy quickly after. A few months passed and we still talked randomly about how we missed each other. I told her I would drop anything and everything in my life to be with her, but she always said stuff like, “just give me time,” “I’m trying to find myself,” “I know we will be together one day,” and, “if you really loved me, you’d wait for me.” I just wanted to hate her. I was sick of hearing that stuff. I wanted to move on with my life, but I couldn’t, I was still in love with her. One night, when I was alone, I told her to tell me something I could hate her for, I insisted she just give me something to make me stop wanting to “wait.” She then told me how she and him had sex…I fell to my knees…..hopeless. Hearing that killed me. Knowing the person she was, and the person she had become, were completely opposite. All the morals she ever had were thrown out, just like that. She was no longer my angel.
So Perfect Girl, it turns out, isn’t really Perfect and you got dumped. Huh. The BSG is shocked. But the part where you totally set yourself up for this was the “she was my own perfect angel” part. Really SAN? Does the BSG really need to point this out? Setting Perfect Girl up on a pedestal and giving her wings and a halo, besides making the BSG hack up a hairball, set you up for failure.
So now she’s taking “intimate pictures” with a guy you both used to consider a player? Well maybe she’s been wanting to get a little nasty for awhile and couldn’t seem to find room on the pedestal you’d installed her on. Honestly SAN, it doesn’t seem to the BSG that you were relating to her as a human. Of course she got drunk at a party…you had been CHEATING on her (cyber cheating, yes, but it feels nearly as bad). So when she gets up the courage to dump you, she goes exactly the other way. Maybe she wanted someone to treat her like a piece of meat, maybe she wanted some meaningless sex. How sad that you couldn’t have provided her with that kind of variety in your own sex life, it may have kept you both there.
Here’s the scoop SAN: you’ve been dumped. Don’t buy into any of her “we’ll be together eventually” crap, she’s saying that to keep from telling you to go the hell away. Or heck, maybe she really is trying to keep you on the line while she spreads her wings and sows her oats a little (metaphor mixing here).
So you badgered her until she described having sex with Player Guy? That’s some messed up shit, SAN. And your conclusion is that she’s thrown out her morals? What was she supposed to do, dress in white and weep quietly over your cheating ass behavior? She was never an angel and how dare you question her for having pretty much the same morals you have. You two are now in the phase of just hurting each other because you can. Stop it and get out. Just get out.
Tune in next time, Dear Readers because the BSG isn’t done with him yet.